I'm sorry and feeling guilty to my little wonderland. I'm thinking to change the skin EVERYDAY, but i still haven't start to find a good skin till now!
I'm feeling upset of some friends. We seldom meet because some of them are not in Miri. The only thing we 100% will do in a year is A MEAL. I'm sorry that i'm not that wealthy like you think. I can't afford so much things. And yet, nobody will understand because they come from a normal family. I assume mine is ABNORAML, okay. Okay, this is the last time. If i still feel so for the next time, I won't compromise again since i do whatever under my limitations.

What to do now?
Holiday. It's a boring holiday. I can't do whatever i like. I'm like a piece of dead meat. :'( I don't want to start at this home. Bitches don't treat you like human beings, so why the heck you treat them good? I want to go out to kill time. I don't have money to shop so lim teh is the best choice. What the hell again i can't go out late. So you tell me what the hell i can do at this moment. Screw you, shits!

鼎概头毛日日在落呀！都落了一个月了，我不要变秃头！;( 还有这个有问题啊！ 不管了，过些日子较起劲了再说吧！;(

After a year of long wait, i finally got what i wish for, always till now. I dont know why i m not feeling happy when i receive it, but i know myself is satisfied with it. The day onwards, i stick to him everyday after waking up from sleep till a minute before sleeping. It's useful for me, all i do are blogging, surfing, chatting, video-calling, tweeting. There's only one word i could describe it - FUN !

My god-family and I had our early celebration of Christmas yesterday night. This is the picture i took when everyone hadn't arrived.

With my god-sis, she doesn't like me, seriously. She threw my pendrive cap, hit me, pushed me...such a bad girl. She will know after grown up. *evil grin* Everyone received a few presents, and....what's for me? 2 clothes and a photo stand with me and my god-fam's pictures.

It's only 11 days since my boyfriend left Miri, but the missing is killing me yet fills up all my times. Hopefully, he'll be back for me real soon. I should pray that i can fly to his place to stick with him. :x I know i m very sticky, but i ain't a sticky note, i'm a chewing gum after being chewed.

Should i? Can i? May i? I really hope to, wish for and pray for. imy xx

It has been 10 days after exam. I'm still so unmotivated. I thought everyone including me should be damn happy since the exam was finally over. And yay, everyone is happy up to now except me myself. I don't know why, i just don't know why. For the last two or three weeks, i had late supper every night. It's so weird that my weight drops and hits 40kg. That's what i want but i don't want the small tummy! I must really work out every day and cut down the supper habit.

I think i have autism lately. I L.O.V.E. staying at home alone. Watching drama repeatedly screening on the TV and online. My life is so boring yet i L.O.V.E. it so much. I don't know why, i just don't really wish to go out.
Oh yeah, i have a new number but i seldom use it. No, i always, only at night to call my love one. Heheheh. I'm so freaking happy when i see the balance not changing after talking for hours. HAHAHAH! I'm using Digi Buddyz, so nice leh!

There are many stuffs i have to do before cny comes. CNY! CNY is getting nearer and nearer. Of course, Christmas and New Year come first. I think i should start to do my things now or else i will be competing with time.

I think i have a pair of pretty eyes. For me, i think they're. I don't care what you think. :P They'll be so different when i wear contact lens even the transparent one. All the people think i m prettier wearing contact lens. However, i prefer wearing spec then lens because wearing lens are so tiring. Another thing is i look nerdy and normal with my spec. I m nerdy, i admit. HAHAHAH! Not really, nerds don't go clubbing!

My dear is going back to his place today. Seriously, i don't know how to live without his physical body. Nobody is going to stay up late watching movie with me, nobody brings me going everywhere to walk, nobody brings me home from clubs and I WILL BE FUCKING MISS HIM! My daily life has no aim out of a sudden. :-( Please come back soon and more often.
Although we had gone to many places before this, i still miss you and never satisfy. It's not enough not enough not enough, never enough.
Call me when you see this, MUST! It's an order. Another order is pick up my call every night. You know, i miss you whole day long but couldn't be with you every moment, so talk to me talk to me talk to me.